Week 3 Diary Room

[moonman23]

DAY 15

OH MY GOD! Wow! I thought I've seen everything, but this twist is really something, Joe and Brett. Kudos to the both of you. I think this is one of the most genius ideas for a Big Brother game. I guarantee CBS Big Brother will probably steal this idea from us, too (if they really do look at this.) 

This twist is definitely game changing and it does a lot to the game. If you ask me, the amount of paranoia in a real Big Brother game doesn't compare to this. I mean, at least in previous seasons of Big Brother, you knew when people were targeting you. And you generally knew who that was. The HOH had to make their nominations in public, the Veto Winner had to use their Veto in public. If the HOH nominated you, then obviously that was how you based your game. But, now, you don't even have that luxury. This is the ultimate change to the game. You get to make moves without being exposed. Just like you said before, you have discretion. You can tell people if you want, or you can keep it a secret and go along with the flow. And if later on you decide that things need to change, you can do so as long as you kept everything secret.

Of course, it does have its limits and disadvantages. For example, you can still be exposed by trying to campaign in a certain way. Say you want to get rid of someone that is a popular player or with allies on the block. By telling people you think they should vote a certain way, then you could be exposing your power as HOH. This twist forces you to really decide who you trust and with what information. Plus, it also makes you think about your decisions. More likely, you should decide who you're targeting before you talk to people rather than after. It is so crazy!

The Covert Affair Twist definitely has the power to do great things in this game, it really does! But, it also presents more of a concern for justifying your game at the end. Because you would either have a lot of explaining to do for why you made your decisions and also proving that you had an affect in the game. Maybe the truth will eventually come out about what you did secretly as HOH, but not until later when it matters and when you need votes.

Quite a twist. We'll see what the Private Eyes think about it and how the rest of the house is feeling about it. 

[moonman23]

DAY 16:

Well, I have turned in my HOH Competition. At this point, I can only cross my fingers and hope for the best. After talking with the Private Eyes last night after the Covert Affairs Twist was revealed, I realize that this is a HOH Competition that I want to win. Myself, Christian, Luci, and Bryson have all pledged to stay loyal to each other. At this point, I believe that the perfect way for me to affirm that trust is to stick with them and win HOH.

As I stated in my last Diary Room and other talks, the way to beat this twist is through Trust. That's it: the only way you can stay in the loop is trust. You have to show people in the house that they can trust you, so that they will tell you what is happening. At this point, having a third of the house on your side is a great privilege to have, and I think Christian, Luci, and Bryson are three of the strongest players in this game. Luci seems like she can be a competition beast, and Christian and Bryson are two people that I can talk with in this game. I really think that if the four of us can continue to work together, we can make it through these next few weeks.

If I win HOH, I will put up a combination of Tyreke, Matt, James, or Gabe. They are the four individuals that I have established very little relationship with in this game. None of them are going to help me get farther at this point, and are the ones I fear the most in the game. The Private Eyes seem to be in agreement with that, for now. But, given the hidden twist, they could change their minds. But, I will not betray them, this week. That would be foolish for me to do. It's still early in the game, plus that would put me at risk with this twist. Depending on how things go, if I win HOH a second time, my opinions might change. The secrecy of this power may work to my advantage to blindside one of them. I don't know what would happen if the four of us made it all the way to the end, but I don't know if that's what I want to have happen, yet. Lots of decisions, balancing my short term game, and my long term game. But, first HOH I get will be used to demonstrate why my alliance should trust me.

This was definitely a hard HOH Competition. I am hoping that I did well, in it. I really need to start earning some credit in this game, and that means winning a HOH competition and making some moves. Only time will tell! Till next time!

[moonman23]

DAY 17:

WHAT AN INTERESTING 12 HOURS IN THE BIG BROTHER HOUSE. I have to say that this twist has already started the paranoia, in ways that I hoped it would not. Many of us may have overlooked the Magnifying Glass Prize in the Mystery Room, and that has clearly affected the last half a day in the house.

So, last night, the HOH was crowned. And, like the twist stated, we would not find out the identity from the hosts. So, the witch hunt began last night for who the winner was. I knew I had not won and I was very saddened by this. I was also surprised that someone managed to find only $260 some dollars for all of those items. I thought I had done well. But, if it wasn't me, I'd hoped it was one of my Private Eyes. So, I asked, and Luci, Christian, and Bryson all said they hadn't won. Joner said he didn't win. Sam told me he didn't win. Matt told me he didn't win. Van wasn't eligible to win. I was very nervous, because that left Tyreke, Gabe, and James. They are three people in this house that I really know little about. I have talked little with them and I would worry the most about them putting me on the block.

Well, then the turn of events happened. Some players bought magnifying glass and Joner was one of them! He messaged me and told me that I couldn't tell anyone I knew, but he bought a magnifying glass and Luci was the one that won HOH. In that moment, so many things and feelings passed through my mind. Part of me was happy, part of me was shocked, part of me was upset. Obviously, Luci is one of the Private Eyes, but she already told us she didn't win. If she did, that means SHE LIED. So, what was the meaning of this? Why would she do this? I was starting to wonder if I would have to risk asking her if this was true, hence revealing how I found out, etc.

THEN, A TURN OF EVENTS! Once Luci realized that three houseguests bought magnifying glasses, she knew that things had changed. She came clean to me, Bryson, and Christian. She admitted that she won HOH. She said she lied because she wanted to pin the HOH on Gabe and avoid consequences for what she was planning on doing. Luci told us that she wants to nominate Van and Matt, with the intention of getting Van out of the house. Luci noted to us that she wanted to use her HOH to get rid of a big threat in the house. She noted that there were big threats in the game and she didn't want to waste this HOH getting rid of someone less active in the game. She didn't want to tell us, because she was afraid that we would disagree with her.

Well, it is true that Christian, Bryson, and I did not totally agree with her. We voiced our concerns to Luci in a group message, noting that getting Van out now may not be the best move for our games. We also noted that Van kept all of us safe last week when he put up three people that we would have nominated anyways. But, we also told Luci that we trusted her and we were going to support her decisions, whether we totally agreed with her or not. That's the way an alliance is: sometimes, you have to go along with things you don't agree with for the sake of your game and preserving an alliance. Plus, Luci is HOH. If we just flat out told her that we weren't with her, she might have turned the tables on us.

Here are my thoughts on the turn of events. Obviously, I understand why Luci did what she did, and also why she wants to nominate a player like Van. The bottom line is: Van won HOH last week because he got no scares cast against him. ZERO SCARES. That means either he was very seriously overlooked or he has friends in this game. It could be a little of both. Van has showed that he has the ability to win a competition, whereas someone like Gabe, Tyreke, or Matt may not take the game as seriously and may not be able to win a competition as easily. I mean, part of me does agree with Luci's analysis. But, I don't think she's balancing her short term/long term game very well.

The fact remains that there are still 11 people left in the game. It is still early to be making a really big move. Tyreke, Matt, James, and Gabe are players that none of us have really talked to much, whereas I've talked a lot with Van and Van is participating. Why get rid of Van when we can get rid of a player that we just don't know much about? That is the major issue. Plus, I worry about the ramifications of this decision. What if Van is able to win the Veto and takes himself off of the block? What will happen then? This could change the entire course of the game, in my opinion.

For now, Christian still wants to keep our alliance together and I hope that Bryson will agree to the same. But, it is also a concern for me, as well. Luci's actions confirm something that I've suspected since the beginning of the game. Luci is not easy to work with and is hard to trust. Just the way she is, her approaches to things, I don't trust her a lot. At this point, I'm working with her because of the old saying: "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer." If I were to abandon Luci, if I were to reprimand her, explode with anger, etc., I would alienate her and she would have no trouble coming for me in the game. Luci wants to take out threats: how long will it be before she thinks that Christian or I are a threat to her game? Or Bryson? Will she be the one to tear the Private Eyes apart? That's my concern.

For now, I have to play good ally. It's my only play in this game, this week. I have to do what Luci says, because I could be in trouble if I don't. What I'll do from here, I have no idea. In an ideal world, I would get Christian and Bryson to agree that Luci is a threat to all of our games and we would work to get her backdoored. If I win HOH next week, I have no idea what I will do. Will I orchestrate a blindside to get Luci out? Or, will I stick with the plan. Right now, I'm more willing to stick with the Private Eyes plan, because as I stated above, I don't know Tyreke, Matt, or James. James, I might be able to talk more with him and maybe Matt. But, if I win HOH next week, I'd be more willing to target Tyreke, because I know nothing about him. Matt and James are more beneficial than him.

Let's see what happens. Let's see if Luci sticks to her word, even, and puts up Van and Matt. Last nights events could have changed her mind, in good or bad ways. Maybe she'll see our perspectives and put up Tyreke, James, and/or Matt. But, what if she feels she can't trust me or one of my allies, and puts one of us up? Anything could happen at this point. I'm just anticipating anything and everything. It won't be until after this week is over that I'll feel more steady.

Get ready for things to get crazy in the Big Brother House!

[moonman23]

DAY 18:

Well, tonight is the Veto. It's definitely nerve wracking, wondering what is going to happen. Because we won't know what is going to happen, until after it's already done. Obviously, we'll know who the nominees are later this week, and if my name's not one of them, then it'll be another good week.

As far as I know, the plan is still to evict Van. I don't want to upset my Private Eyes alliance. They are the most active here and they seem to want to stay loyal with me, so I'm willing to stand by them. For now, if Van stays on the block, he'll be going home. Myself, Christian, and Bryson are going to vote for Van. That's three votes. There are 11 people, 1 HOH and 2 noms that aren't eligible to vote, so there are eight votes. We need one more and that vote will come from Gabe. Gabe is super upset that Van put him on the block last week. He wants to send Van home because of it. There are the four votes. If it turns out to be a tie, then Luci breaks the tie and will send Van home.

But, in order for that to happen, the Veto either has to be used on Matt or it can't be used at all. We'll see. Hoping I haven't been played this whole week, but I am more sure that I'm alright rather than at risk. Time will tell. Let's see, or I guess not see because of this twist, what will happen in the Veto! Wish I was playing...

[Derek]

Here are my answers. I apologize if they are a little short. Yesterday, we had a family emergency with my grandfather. Unfortunately, today, we've had another emergency with my grandfather, as well. He was taken to the hospital after he fell and had trouble breathing, so I may be leaving to go to the hospital, soon.

1.) What are your feelings on how this week played out?
My feelings are very mixed. Some parts of this week were good and other parts not so good. I'm glad I survived another week in the house, obviously. I am very disappointed with the way the vote went and how Luci handled her HOH and her gameplay. Myself, Christian, and Bryson all told Luci that it wasn't a good idea to nominate Van and Matt, but she didn't care. I worried about fighting her on the issue too much, because she wanted to target game threats, and I was worried she would put me up. She reminded me a little of Vanessa from Big Brother 17. I feel like the littlest thing could set her off. And then I was really upset when she just stopped showing up, ended up on the block, and we did all we could to save her, and she still went home. Luci could have at least named a replacement nominee, or she could have announced she was quitting before she left. I just don't understand what is going on. I'm worried, because she was having family emergencies with her father's health. I hope that everything is alright there.

With my identity being revealed, only time will tell if it will work out or not. I'm worried, because people aren't messaging me as much. I know I'm a target, but am I the main target for being the winner of the returning players? Maybe, so. My allies told me that they understood. Plus, with Jake and Cody being in the game, I am worried but hoping for the best. The two want to work with me. I know how tight they are, I know they need to be broken up, and Jake is a big threat in the game. I have to proceed carefully. I am hoping to win HOH.

2.) What worries you the most about the twist?
I worry about not being aware of who is targeting me. I mean, the benefit about Big Brother is that at least you know where people stand. The HOH is revealing some of their intentions when they make their nominations. But, now, you may not even know who the HOH is. You won't know who is targeting you, at all. You may end up alienating people by believing they targeted you, making enemies out of people that are really your friends. Really, the not knowing is ten times worse than knowing a HOH is not your friend, but at least you know they are HOH and know what they will do. That is what concerns me.

3.) Do you have any regrets in the game yet?
Probably allying with Luci, at this point. Again, I like her, and I understand if something happened, but I should have stood up to her, more. I should have put up more of a fight for her to put up someone like Tyreke. I wanted Tyreke (Jake) out early, and I felt it was the perfect opportunity to backdoor him. But, Luci wouldn't listen and after she lied about winning HOH at first, I knew the relationship was precarious. I really am upset that she didn't even contact us, at all. Even just to tell us that she was quitting, that something happened. We heard nothing. Maybe if I would have done something else, maybe I wouldn't be worried like I am.

4.) If you had to pick a person you want to go to the end with right now who would it be?
Right now, I would want to go to the end with Christian. I feel he is a trusted ally, I feel he may really have my back in this game, despite the fact I'm Derek, and if I can't win this game, right now, I want him to win. So, I would say Christian.

5.) What is your goal going into the next week?

My goal next week is to win HOH and survive another week. Jake and Cody are either being honest that they want to work together with me or they are setting me up to get me evicted. If I get HOH, I may do two things: keep myself safe and establish trust. Maybe they'll pay me back if they win HOH. It's the best I can hope for. Do I want to target them? Yes, but I have to be very careful and pick the right time. I am trying to convince people that they are the bigger threats, not me. We'll see how it goes.


I will do another Diary Room later tonight, because I'm off work. I'll go more in depth and try to sum everything up, but like I said, with my grandfather being in the hospital now, I am focused on that, for the moment. I will still compete in the HOH tonight, but I may not do as well, depending on the circumstances.

Thanks, again. Talk to you soon.